Zhng
thinking
Sunday, October 25, 2009 @ 7:28 PM
Just now on the train ride back home after dinner at Babe's place, i was thinking, Sunday is really one of the most happiest and unhappiest day of my life currently for now. Cause either i have to book in on Sunday in which i will have to leave her and the thought of not seeing her for 5 days straight would really suck, or i fall sick and get Att C in which i get to spend more days with her and relaxing at home. I just really hate that feeling of booking in. People call it going to work, i call it going back to prison.
Back there it's all regimental, you listen to higher ups, do what higher ups do, just like dogs and we even eat dog food cause the food sucks. Life just sucks now, i need more time with her that's all, i want it so badly, let me break a limb or two please?
On a brighter note i passed my FTT and i really can't wait for 15th Jan where i can really start driving without taking the bus on the weekends. But then it depends whether OC will even give me an off to go take the test.
Brings me back to a point. How ironical, OC's grandfather passed away and they say it's optional to give the funeral money thingamiji but then we have to write it down in a nominal role, reason is cause they want to give it to OC. So what's this? Is this optional or is it compulsory? Will we get blacklisted if we do not give or worse do not do his bidding? If i know that we will get blacklisted, trust me i will be the first to pick up the phone and call the MP and tell them everything. Are we really dogs for the SAF? Think about it. Singapore being such a country. Too bad i am here. But i am greatful of whoever i have around me, my family, babe, my platoon mates, and all my friends. Thank god i have them to talk to if not i'll just go crazy. Time to go back to me cell now, wish me luck.