fate is an elegant cold-hearted whore

Just wanted to..

2010-02-09T02:24:00.002+08:00

Sorry, but I just wanted to tell you that I missed you.. so, so much.

2010-01-20T06:10:00.001+08:00

haitus for too long

2009-11-30T15:35:00.003+08:00

Sorry for not blogging for such a long time, was really busy with the past few weeks. Having field camp and all that shit. Anyway field camp still sucked cause of all the dirt and shit and now i have a gazillion sandfly bites on my hand which sucks, super itchy. Down with a really bad flu and cough now, like my phlegm is like "OMGBBQ". Had one bout of really high fever the other night and i was really dying at that point of time.

Now we're going to do ICCT in camp which is practising for close combat and i don't feel like trying it at all please? Got to deal with the cough first still. Okay i think i am going to put braces cause my teeth is getting more and more out of shape, i can't bite with my front teeth at all, how sucky is that? Okay going to play games with babe now, she's bring her PS2 over.

shitty weekend

2009-11-13T20:56:00.002+08:00

Well back from a super hectic 2 weeks that we had, washing everything and painting whatever that we can find just to get ready for the inspection. Anyway just took a day off to get a break from there and to visit my girl as she was having some problems so i wanted to meet her. Gave her a lovely surprise and i hope that she really liked it and it made her day. Spent the day with her before sending her off to work.Can't really blog much as i got to prepare to get my ass back to camp for guard duty, then on Sunday after i book out i am going to go to the hospital to see the dentist cause my wisdom tooth is coming out and it's hurting pretty much, i think i need to go get it extracted. It's even starting to feel numb, how sucky to do guard duty with that. HAHA! Okay off to get back to camp, be back in a day's time.

P.S. Love you babe, sorry that i didn't have dinner at MFM, wasn't feeling really good just now and i think i have the fever now. Take care yea babe? See you on Sunday.

thinking

2009-10-25T19:28:00.002+08:00

Just now on the train ride back home after dinner at Babe's place, i was thinking, Sunday is really one of the most happiest and unhappiest day of my life currently for now. Cause either i have to book in on Sunday in which i will have to leave her and the thought of not seeing her for 5 days straight would really suck, or i fall sick and get Att C in which i get to spend more days with her and relaxing at home. I just really hate that feeling of booking in. People call it going to work, i call it going back to prison.

Back there it's all regimental, you listen to higher ups, do what higher ups do, just like dogs and we even eat dog food cause the food sucks. Life just sucks now, i need more time with her that's all, i want it so badly, let me break a limb or two please?

On a brighter note i passed my FTT and i really can't wait for 15th Jan where i can really start driving without taking the bus on the weekends. But then it depends whether OC will even give me an off to go take the test.

Brings me back to a point. How ironical, OC's grandfather passed away and they say it's optional to give the funeral money thingamiji but then we have to write it down in a nominal role, reason is cause they want to give it to OC. So what's this? Is this optional or is it compulsory? Will we get blacklisted if we do not give or worse do not do his bidding? If i know that we will get blacklisted, trust me i will be the first to pick up the phone and call the MP and tell them everything. Are we really dogs for the SAF? Think about it. Singapore being such a country. Too bad i am here. But i am greatful of whoever i have around me, my family, babe, my platoon mates, and all my friends. Thank god i have them to talk to if not i'll just go crazy. Time to go back to me cell now, wish me luck.

back home and again, used and abused

2009-10-22T22:26:00.002+08:00

Finally back home after the week, it was our 4th month on Wednesday and sadly i could not spend it with her but it's alright there will be plenty of time, last long baby! Booked out early cause it was an off but the just so very nice army decided to eat half our off cause of some change of command parade.

Had one stupid day in camp cause of one really retarded sergeant who like totally abused us when we were on status and he kept forcing us to do stuff. Contemplating on calling the MP soon. Picked up baby just now from work to give her a little surprise cause she did not know that i was coming down.

So i see that my blog has been hacked a few times but it alright cause i have the hunch on who did it, will go confront her later, haha! Yea so parade tomorrow and that's it, time with her again.

P.S Happy 4 months baby, i treasure you so much and i don't ever want to let you go. Say, just say that you will always stay with me and be here for me always? I really hate it that you have no phone with you now and i cannot contact you whenever i want, i need you so badly everyday. Last of all, I LOVE YOU<3 :)

We can kick it here for hours

2009-10-21T22:18:00.001+08:00

IM A DAMN GOOD HACKER MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

sleeping beauty

2009-10-11T01:01:00.002+08:00

Okay it's been a really long weekend this week and i am really happy cause i got to spend quite a lot of time with her and it was fun. Wednesday when we booked out, went clubbing with Josh, Guo Rong, Teck Yeow at Phuture. It was really crowded and was having a hard time trying to dance there though.

Then the next day had to drag my ass out of bed to go for driving at nine in the morning and it really sucked. Then went over to baby's house to help her in her studies, went for Jhun Boon's birthday dinner later on that night and then headed back to her house to teach her again. It was getting quite hard to keep awake after the whole day of activities and fell asleep for quite awhile then rushed back to teach her.

Went to catch Funny People with her the next day and it was really funny just that the movie was a bit too long, like 2 hours plus. Helped out my sister this morning at her flea at Changi Airport and she made quite a lot today though.

Alright got to go sleep soon cause i have driving tomorrow morning, then spending the whole day with baby again.:) love you!

tell you a secret

2009-09-29T01:22:00.000+08:00

Baby there is like totally no way i can contact you now so i just have to leave you notes here. Please help me check my driving thing alright? UserID: V0016785. Ask me for my password tomorrow when you call me yea?

Damn i am trying to do a photoshop for her and i waited for the thing to be downloaded and yet it's not running, omg should i give up? I want to surprise her!

loving you more each day

2009-09-27T22:38:00.002+08:00

This was a really short week for me. Booked in on Monday night and then we got a special off at the last minute and booked out on Thursday night. But prior to that we had some event for the AOH where we all gathered for a dinner and watched some video montage.

Picked up my button nose on Friday from her school and had lunch with Wei Xiong and Sera at the prata house. Then we went home after that and found out that she lost her phone. Now i can't contact her :( so sad. Went to watch Inglorious Bastards on Saturday and i swear that it's a real funny show, Brad Pitt acts really well please?

However me and her stayed at home most of the time cause it's just really enjoyable to be spending time with her at home and relaxing around. Got to spend time talking to her which i missed out cause of ATP on Monday and Tuesday and god i swear that i am really loving my girlf more and more everyday. She's just making me go really crazy. Anw back to ATP i missed Marksman by 4 points please? So close la.

Okay this Monday is another off-in-lieu for us again so i am staying home to coach baby in her studies. Then on Tuesday and Friday i have MA so i think i am going to stay home more.

Got to go now, got something important to do, driving tomorrow too!

3 months

2009-09-21T00:48:00.002+08:00

Happy 3 months baby!!! It has been a really great time together with you and i really love you alot!!! I know you are beside me now though:)

back home!

2009-09-18T21:37:00.002+08:00

I just feel really blessed now, came back and there she was in my room waiting for me. I feel really lucky to just have her. Now we are both lying down on my bed while i use the computer and she's studying. Been really missing her so much these few days. She means so much to me now. I love you my silly girl!<3

cause tonight i'm falling

2009-09-15T23:48:00.002+08:00

Finally the 13 days confinement is totally over. AOH was... i have no idea how to describe cause i could not see anything at all but the tress and mosquitoes. Went in for a few hours to get some break and some lunch. It was totally a much needed break.

So i am finally back at home. Came out on Saturday due to some live firing, finally got to meet my little loved one and spent time together with her. Woke up early on Sunday cause i had to go send my sister off back to Australia but she's coming back in December again which is good. Then spent Sunday watching Gamer (which was not bad) and went shopping with babe. Bought her this playsuit from Topshop and i hope she loves it.

Monday was off in-lieu so i went out with baby to go for her dance practise and then to the hospital to go see the doctor cause i wasn't feeling well, anw i am having mc until tomorrow which is Wednesday which is also my mum's birthday.

Really glad that i could spend so much time with her cause i have not seen her much during the past 13 days. It was getting kind of torturous at some point of time. Plus i had dinner today with her parents and it was quite stressful although it was only a dinner at home. Meeting parents for the first time is still really stressful.

We'll get sick together

2009-09-11T18:55:00.001+08:00

Even when we get sick, we'll get sick together okay?

13 days confinement

2009-08-30T23:14:00.000+08:00

Holy crap i am like so going to be confined for the next 13 days cause of the dearest AOH and the dearest Bravo Company who does not want to give us off so we could just work our ass off and collapse. AOH is going to be on Thursday till Tuesday i guess? 3rd Sept - 7th Sept. Gosh we got so much stuff to do and i hope it does not rain at all cause it will just be all muddy and all which really sucks. The only good thing is that we get to book in tomorrow which is a Monday but it's at 7am so i guess it's not really much better.

Anyway had a really nice time with babe this week. I managed to spend as little money as i could cause we stayed at home most of the time, only went to catch the movie Band Slam which was not bad i think. The music was not bad and the acting was okay. Had Chomp Chomp again this week but i still love eating it cause i can never get sick of it. Then we had some fun with pore packs and face masks which was really funny.

I guess it just going to be a whole lot tougher missing her for 13 days, it really sucks even when it's for 5 days. They had better change their minds cause it's all easy for the higher up cause they can like go home everyday while the rest of us just suck thumb in camp. I wonder how the other civilians would react after hearing how sad our lives are. It's just a serious waste of time.

Control

2009-08-24T12:58:00.003+08:00

This week has been a really great weekend for the both of us. Booked out late on Friday cause of the Army Open House and it's going to happen next Friday again. Had supper with a few of babe's friend at the Hong Kong Cafe.

Saturday was like the best day cause we rented a DSLR and went to the Underwater World. It was the first time for baby and i think she really liked it, could see her enjoying herself snapping all the pictures and all. Then walked a bit before taking back Chomp Chomp for dinner.

Yesterday baby had worked so i went to have lunch with my family at the restaurant cause my sister just came back from Australia on Friday. Then went to baby's house to slack awhile before i went to the hospital to get my ear checked cause it's getting painful. At night we went for a farewell dinner with her dance friends and some of them were really funny.

Okay i just found out that i really need to start saving cause i have been spending alot already. My first plan is to only spend 50 dollars a week. We will see how that goes and i will plan the rest with baby. Cause we can both work things out together.

Baby i miss you, wake up soon. Loving you always, your number 1!

2009-08-16T14:10:00.000+08:00

I just had a 10km Army Half Marathon run today. I never knew that it would be that tiring to actually walk also. Slacked around while walking with the usual bunch of people from my platoon. Then went for lunch at some Imperial Treasure place which was relatively not bad and then i came home straight.

Going out after this to meet baby to buy her books for her to study for her EOYs. She needs to buck up so she will be able to do well plus i believe she can do it cause i can see that she's quite a smart girl. We are also going to go town for awhile to shop and look around at stuff before heading back home for her to cook me her fried dumplings. Definitely expecting that from her.

The past week was kind of slack with the Army Open House rehearsal for 2 days and next week has 3 and the week after next has somemore. It's like all concentrating on this event cause they want it super well done and yes i am in SKP (Sai Kang Party). But our sergeant is nice so we get quite some benefits from him though. Anw Army Open House is on the 3rd-7th September so if any of you want to come down you can see all the really cool stuff that the army has to show?

On a really sad note, my IPhone is gone! No more already cause i sold it to some idiot as my friends say cause he bought a one year old IPhone for 650 bucks. No idea what was he thinking man. So now i am using my sister's old phone, but it's still kind of interesting to use.

Alright, going to head out now! Wait or maybe waiting a while cause as usual my baby takes some time to bathe and dress up.

So i am going to have a shoutout here " BABY I LOVE YOU! I HOPE YOU REALLY ENJOY YOUR TIME WITH ME CAUSE IT'S GOING TO BE OUR 2 MONTHS ON FRIDAY AND I AM GETTING QUITE EXCITED ABOUT IT, CAUSE I SERIOUSLY APPRECIATE EVERY MOMENT SPENT WITH YOU, I JUST CAN'T GET ENOUGH!HAHA"

Please know that...

2009-08-09T00:48:00.003+08:00

Well the week has been going great for me, practically spent like the last 2 days with her. Met her in town on Friday and went to Billy Bombers for dinner, had that giant burger which was like totally filling. Then headed home to relax and enjoy cause i was like so tired. Then today i had to go for worship practise cause the other drummers were not available so i had to take over. Kind of nervous cause i have not played for a long long time. Then went for dinner with her and her friends before heading home to catch Jumper, so she went home like about an hour ago.

Okay the week was really a scary one with something happening on Wednesday which made me really go crazy and wanted to like AWOL immediately. But yea, i am glad that everything is settled and the love is going to be stronger for sure.

Alright i have to go sleep really soon cause i need to wake up early for church but i am on the phone and i do not even feel like putting down. Tomorrow we are going to catch G.I Joe and then coming home to bake a cake for dad cause yesterday was his birthday and it's going to be a surprise for me. Then on monday we're going to go to Sentosa, to suntan and get wet. HAHA!

Stop the world

2009-08-04T23:29:00.001+08:00

Dinner

2009-07-31T19:19:00.000+08:00

Okay super short post! Hanged out with babe's friend in the afternoon and she went for work, now i am going to go for dinner at her work place with my platoon mates and then go drinking. Let's have fun guys.

She's the sweetest taste of sin, The more i get the more i want. Hope you see this girl!

Gotta run now!

If one day I woke up and you're gone..

2009-07-27T23:55:00.002+08:00

And demand that you come right back into my arms.

2009-07-25T04:06:00.002+08:00

Hi I hope you see this in the morning and it'll make you smile, we'll think about what we want to do on a saturday afternoon okay?

I'm fine with anything, anywhere with you, love.

drained

2009-07-25T01:12:00.001+08:00

I have entirely no energy to type long at all cause i might be having possible food poisoning case 2 in 2 weeks! Feeling week with muscle aches all over and slight fever, what good sign might it be? Sigh this sucks. I've got a present for you, here's my heart baby. It's always locked with me my dear.

relaxing on the sofa

2009-07-22T01:00:00.002+08:00

It was a really simple day yet the most meaningful day that we spent together. She brought loads of food for me for lunch just now, ban mian, popcorn chicken and tau huay. The ban mian was really good though and it definitely tasted sweet cause she bought and cooked the stuff for me so i enjoyed it.

After that we just sat at the sofa and started watching tv, then went on to the movie Bend It like Beckham, was quite a funny show though. We watched tv and ate mudpie at the same time, mudpie was definitely a success after the baking on saturday. Then after the movie had the tom yam maggie mee which was super nice actually, should have put an egg inside and it would have tasted nicer.

So today was just a relaxing day at home and not a stressful first month where we had to go and rush doing all the stuff. Just sitting down on the sofa and watching tv and talking to her was already enough. Loved it.

Alright back to talking to her on the phone now.

lost one but gained the other

2009-07-21T13:34:00.004+08:00

It's finally our one month already, felt really happy and definitely i would want more months to come and even years. I believe that we can pull through it all.

I just want to thank her for being like the best girlf that i have had. She is like one of the sweetest and the one which i have done the most things with too. She has like given me the greatest impression of all. I hope that i have actually been a good boyf to you? And i hope that i have not disappointed you at all, gonna start giving you all the best yea?

I still want to say that i am sorry that i am having army now and can't really spend the weekdays with you. However i promise you that i will spend my weekends with you cause thats the only time i can make up for it. It kind of sucks cause i really want to be there for you whenever something happens but no matter what, my phone is always on so that you can drop me a text or leave a voicemail which i can read/hear when i have the time.

This morning i kind of woke up to the millions of morning calls from the army, like one at 8 the other at 9 another at 11 then the last one was 12. I have no idea whether they are gonna call again so i have to stay at home permanently. How sad eh? Even when you are sick the army still wants to control you over the phone. So i concluded that we really have become the property of the well-known SAF.

She's cooking lunch for me cause i am still having diarrhoea and my stomach still hurts. I think her food is gonna be like super nice again cause she is like a super good cook i swear. Next time she's going to stay home all day and whip up a sumptuous meal for me everytime i return home from work or something. She wants to be a full-fledged housewife, so i guess i'll grant her that wish so i can enjoy the blessings of having a housewife.

HAPPY ONE MONTH MY LOVE! We can spend the day home watching television cause i can't step out of the house for one step at all!

wine, beef, pasta & potter

2009-07-20T23:42:00.002+08:00

Woke up this morning with her lying right by my side and my arms wrapped around her. I totally had no idea how i just fell asleep on my bed last night while she was blogging on my computer, felt like totally guilty that i didn't wait for her to come to bed. Feels super great to see her sleeping soundly right beside me when i wake up in the morning, no other words to describe it actually.

Went down in the afternoon to the driving centre to go get my Provisional Driving Liscense(PDL) but the queue was so freaking long and taking such a long time i totally gave up after 45 min cause i did not want to waste my day waiting there whole day.

Caught Harry Potter in the late afternoon with an interesting cab driver talking to us on the way there. Really got my mind thinking on whether i really want to continue staying here or move on to another country but the problem is that my parents are here and the restaurant is here which i also do not want to give up on. Potter was not bad just not enough action, it became more of like a love story this time round but was quite funny though. Lost my camera today too but i have no idea why am i not feeling sad/blaming anyone. Maybe cause it was just all unintentional and cause the cinema staff did not really want to help us out.

Having food poisoning now the both of us and she went home after visiting the doctor. I have like 7 tablets to eat now for every meal like seriously, insanely mad. so i just took a bath and she's taking hers too. Waiting for her to be done and i don't think she will expect me to create this blog.

It's actually going to be our 1 month in like 8 minutes so i thought of creating this as a surprise for her and to actually jot down our memories for us to look back in the future and hopefully show it to our kids? We were actually talking about it this afternoon before we left the house, oh well i guess that's just the secret for us to share.